Log Entry: 3

I popped the DVD into my computer.

Number three, here we go I thought.

I was ready to see it again. Not to really learn it, or to become a fan of it. I just wanted that feeling. That feeling of something so possible, yet, completely out of my reach. There was no plan, no reason to watch it again. I don't know why I did, really. I wasn't a crazy fan looking out to learn all the Na'vi or make screen-captions to use for wallpapers or whatever. I just wanted that feeling...

I saw it, cried most of the time. I cried during every single scene with the Na'vi. I don't know why, but this time I didn't learn to feel certain things about other subjects or the matter of life. I just felt what was necessary to feel at the time I suppose. This time around, I cried like I never have before.

It wasn't just some pity crying either, it was emotional. It was unlike anything I have ever really done. I have cried before, with the gagging and the sobbing of course. But this time it was clean, like a babies cry. Almost innocent, only I wasn't innocent. It was as if I actually felt what each character felt. The happiness, the anger, and the pain. I felt like I was there with them. I understood their every movement, every action.

I didn't learn to save the environment this time, I don't know if I ever will.
All I do know is, is that I felt connected with the characters. Perhaps, even with the world for a moment. This time around, my emotional state was changed. I feel more things I experience, the way it should have been all those times before.

Change number three: Became more emotional with my own feelings that I never had before.
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